I know you’re all waiting on pins and needles to hear what I
have to say. Because really, a 30-something year old wife and mother who is
ranting about something? That NEVER happens. But alas, you will have to be a
little patient because I have to address a very pressing issue first…
Yes, this is my blog. Yes, I’ve neglected it for 3 years
now. Yes, I’m sorry. My few sweet
friends who “followed” my blog are turning on their computers right now and
thinking they’ve been hacked because a blog post from this blog address showed
up in their feeds. Unbelievable, I
know. I really did like to blog back in
the day. But then I entered the interesting and extremely weird world of Facebook.
And let’s be honest – it’s just faster. Throw up a picture, make a sarcastic comment
and BAM – done.
So why return to the blog? Because this rant simply can’t be
contained in a few characters on Facebook. This is something that has bothered
me for some time now and I feel the need to fully sort through it by writing it down. This isn’t
necessarily meant to inspire anyone or state a truth that no one has ever discovered
before. It’s more of my release; my catharsis, if you will; and my resolve. And
as a result, it’s also… wait for it… the Return of the Bowsman Family Blog. {dum, dum, dum!}
So let’s get to the rant already. What am I ranting about? For
a long time, I’ve referred to this as a “ridiculous sense of entitlement in our
world”. I saw it everywhere and it drove me crazy. I saw it in adults on the
road who cut me off at the last minute when the lane ended even though the
“Merge Now” sign was TWO MILES BACK. I saw it when our church hosted a FREE
DINNER for our community and a woman got upset and flat-out belligerent because we ran out of chocolate cookies and
she had to settle for a vanilla one. And
I saw it in kids that I worked with in the schools who could not handle it if
they did not get EXACTLY THEIR WAY, THE SECOND THEY WANTED IT.
A defining moment in my career came at the hands of one of
these kids. One of my first years in the schools, I was called in to do “social
skills” with a kid who had a massive meltdown anytime he did not get to be
first in line, first to the carpet, first to a center, first to the bathroom,
etc. And when I say meltdown, I don’t mean he pouted or quietly cried in the
corner. He screamed, hit, kicked, threw, cursed, bit. You know the term “ankle
biter”? He actually bit an ankle one time. It was fantastic. So he and I met
often and we practiced social skills such as “waiting your turn” and “accepting
the word no”. We went far beyond the 75 positive practices that a kid should
get to internalize a skill. We used pictures. We used words. We recited. We
role played. We modeled. We went in the classroom, the gym, the cafeteria, the
hallway and we practiced until it made me nauseous to think about practicing
again. Then later that afternoon, I would get an email detailing the fit he
threw less than an hour after I dropped him off because he did not get his way.
As I was closing in on my breaking point, I had the rare opportunity to meet
his mother. And suddenly it all made sense. In a thirty minute conference, this
woman made demands of the school that I could never have fathomed, cursed us
out for implying that her kid would ever do anything wrong, blamed every person
and entity for the behavior her child was exhibiting and threatened to call a
lawyer, the state department, and finally George W. Bush (because we were
leaving her child behind, of course). Light bulb moment for me: maybe this problem wasn’t something this and
other “out of control” kids were born with – maybe it was what they were learning.
And they were learning it from the adults.
This may be an extreme example, but it’s not that extreme.
It’s a prevalent mentality. We live in a
world filled with entitlement. And it crosses all lines – socio-economic,
gender, racial, religious. We have much and we expect much. I’d like to say I was immune
to it. But I’d be lying. I expect things. Electricity, a working car, clean
water, prompt service at restaurants, and the blasted home button on my iphone
to work (don’t even get me started). So I’ve come to a conclusion. It’s not really WHAT we feel entitled to. It’s
what we DO when we don’t get those things. Do we pout, yell, call names, blame
others? Do we leap mosh-pit style, kicking and swinging, into group of grown
men who are cheering for an opposing team? Do we sue someone for
everything they’re worth…and more? What is our reaction?
Because our reaction does matter. I’ve worked in the public schools now for 9
years. I’ve encountered a lot of parents who feel that their kids are entitled
to a particular program, intervention, or way of teaching. And guess what? Many
of them are right. But the interesting part has been watching the reaction of
the teachers to these parents. It hasn’t seemed to make a difference whether
the teacher is young, old, new, experienced, strong, weak, knowledgeable, or
completely caught off guard. What HAS mattered has been the way a parent has
approached the teacher about the problem. There are parents who come in grateful
to the teacher for what they’ve done, desperately wanting to work together to
fill in any gaps, and open to any suggestions that could help their child. And
those are the teachers that have bent over backward to help the child. I know
teachers who have spent hours of their own time researching strategies, attending
professional development sessions (even paying their own way), and tutoring
during their lunches, planning times, and before and after school hours. All
for ONE child. It’s truly awe inspiring. But for the parents that come in
angry, making demands and blaming anyone with any relation to the school for
their child’s difficulties? The teachers of those kids do exactly what is outlined
on the formal plan…and not much more.
I’ve been blessed with four of the most amazing grandparents
(this relates – stick with me). I recently asked my grandmother to record a challenge
in her life and I’m going to give you a short summary here to sum this rant up.
Mema was born during the Great Depression. When she was two years old, she had
a freak accident that left her with severe blood poisoning and then
osteomyelitis in her leg. Multiple times, doctors said she would not survive.
She had several surgeries and “drainings” between the ages of two and five.
When she was five years old, she was admitted to the Scottish Rite Hospital. Her parents
had to leave her there alone (hospital rules) and travel back home…many hours
away. FIVE YEARS OLD, people. She remembers watching her mother literally drag
her father off of the grounds of the hospital because he was crying so hard.
She saw her mother for 2 hours every Sunday during visitation through the
entire summer but spent the remainder of the time in a bed alone or having the
bone in her leg scraped to get rid of the decay. This continued every summer of
her childhood. She had her leg purposely broken to straighten it, her ankle
fused, and her “good” leg operated on to stop the growth. Feeling sorry for
her? I should also mention that she learned
to play baseball (on crutches), played in the school marching band, was the
valedictorian of her high school, and was a member of the Tyler Jr College
“Apache Belle” dance team in college. She married, had two children, got her
bachelor’s and master’s degrees and taught school for 23 years. This woman has more energy at 80 than I have
now, even as she works through what has now been a lifelong pain in her legs
and feet. And if you ask her about the Scottish Rite Hospital, she’ll tell you
that they saved her life. There is no bitterness. She and my Papa were recently
interviewed by their local newspaper about their many moves (17, I think) and countless
travels. The last paragraph of the article reads, “’We’ve been happy wherever
we’ve lived,’ Margaret said. ‘It does not matter. You have two choices in life,
you can be happy, or you can be unhappy. We’ve decided to be happy, and that’s
worked well for us.’”
I don’t know if this entitlement thing is new to our
generation or not. I’m guessing not. But I am fearful of how I’m seeing my
generation respond when relatively minor things go wrong. And I’m fearful for
what we’re teaching our children with those responses. Of course, I know I can’t control the world.
But I can control me. And I can try hard to teach my kids by setting an example
that they’ll want to remember. So instead of just ranting about it, here are a
few things I’m committing to work on…
- I will not get sucked in by the advertisements that say I need the newest and best of everything. Unless there is a new phone that can cook dinner or fold laundry, I’m out. I’ve tried to simplify my life lately and it takes far more effort than just mindlessly consuming. But I will give the effort. Because maybe the less I have, the less I’ll expect.
- I will not get concerned when my kids complain because they don’t have something that EVERYONE ELSE does. I will, instead, silently pat myself on the back. Job well done.
- I will realize that while my kids are everything to me, they are one of many in a classroom, on a team or in a group. So I will not lament when the teacher or coach doesn’t see everything I see. I will instead thank them for dedicating their time and effort to children they did not bring into this world, but love enough to work with.
- When my kids don’t get what they want and throw the fit to end all fits, I will stand strong - even when I am beyond tired and don’t feel strong. Because if they don’t learn NOW that a fit doesn’t get them what they want, when will they learn it???
- I will remind myself often that this world does not revolve around ME. Not everyone has to ask my opinion, do things the way I do it, or like what I like. I’ll do my best to roll with that.
- When I’m relying on someone else to do something and they don’t, I will practice what I preach to the kids I work with. I will take a deep breath and count to 10. And I will use “nice words” when I speak.
Most importantly, I’m going to start taking my Mema’s
advice. I’m going to decide to be happy despite the circumstances. When things I think I’m entitled to don’t work
out, I can still be content. And maybe, just maybe, the list of things I think
I have to have will lessen and that contentment will come even easier.
To those of you who have stuck with me through this
ridiculously long rant (yes, both of you); please keep me accountable to what
I’ve just resolved to do. And in return, I promise not post another blog this
long…ever. :)
